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+# Basic Psychology
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+There are few phrases I've heard over the years that have stuck with me ... one of them being the following:
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+> Freud was an excellent story-teller, and Shakespeare an incredible psychologist.
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+While the ideas of one of the post-Freudian academics really caught my attention when Lacan spoke of how _a child in the womb does not know the difference between themselves, their mother and the larger world._
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+Birth shatters this oneness, and the child learns that such a thing as "separation" exists in this world; or rather that there is an entity, called the world, that has come between the child and their mother.
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+We then spend the rest of our lives trying to reconcile this tragedy.
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+How does one even think to begin ?!?
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+I believe that nearly all cultures place a certain importance on drumming ... the playful imitation of our own heart's beat.
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+Next comes the voice ... with melodies not yet needing words ... just the vocalization of a feeling ...
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+The feeling ... of being alive.

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+# Vibrational Medication
+
+Not everyone has the ability to create sound using their voice ... we must acknowledge this first; and for you all, I'm not entirely sure how to proceed through this part ... Though I feel somewhat comforted by the idea that you can sense vibrations in other ways, and so the concepts need not be considered foreign.
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+Because there is not just a magic in our heart-beat, but in the vibrations we create, and some are able to most directly, through song and speech.
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+Someone once said, it is a great blessing to love the sound of your own voice ... but then I ask, why should you not love the sound of your own voice ... even if you only feel able to hum a simple tune ... that tune is yours, it was given to you and no one else ...
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+That you carry the timber of the frequencies, how you choose to move from one note to the next ... that is you, divinely and sacredly, entirely and wholly, you ... cherish the opportunity to be so miraculous.
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+Or so I feel compelled to encourage you.
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+---
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+Speak kindly to yourself ... sing softly, scream out loud if you need to ... your vibrations, your song, your beat ... these are tools that were given to you, to help you heal yourself.
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+This world is not kind to any of us ... though as another great-mind once wrote, "Even kings shit."
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+And while I'm not here to tell you to temper your anger for the sake of peace, rather to encourage you to expand the possibilities of your reality tunnel; find where the boundaries bend, and may even be broken.
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+So when you are feeling sad ... you can remember that in a few hours, a few days, or maybe a few months; you'll be able to see how your sadness was merely the river meant to carry you to the ocean cove of your dreams.
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+But first, you have to believe that there are other ways of looking at things, than the way you might want to view them.
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+And by the power of your vibration, and your song ... You can remember how to do exactly this more quickly than you once might have.

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+# Contemplating Loneliness
+
+That last section ended a bit hollow for me ...
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+Life isn't so easy that one can just sing-a-song to change their mood ... at least not in the beginning.
+
+:::danger Actual Magic
+I used to use a trick when I caught my mind going somewhere I didn't want to go ...
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+As soon as I realized where my mind was going I repeated the phrase, "I have lives, and loves and dreams." Often three times ... and this was enough to scramble my brain, so as to clear my mind for the next random thought ... It was like shaking a magic 8 ball; _Nope! Next message!_
+:::
+
+The dude lived a crazy life ... was a fighter pilot in World War I; returned home a hero, so his uncle gifted him enough money that he'd never have to worry about it again.
+
+Went mountain climbing in India ... and then dove headfirst into the occult ... [Aleister Crowley](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aleister_Crowley) was considered one of the most evil entities in his time, and afterwards.
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+Though he wrote one particular part of a book that I wish to mention ... [Part 1 of Book 4](https://invisiblehouse.org/pdf/liber004_1.pdf).
+
+In this collection Aleister recounts the precise method of meditation, and it's objective purpose; the key points of which I will now fail to recount or paraphrase accurately.
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+All of our minds are racing ... constantly, most of us can't control our thoughts, and those who say that they can are the least capable. Nonetheless, only the truest failures forsake the effort to try again; and so we arm ourselves will tools.
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+Meditation being one such tool ... And while often think of meditation as perhaps closing our eyes, or staring at a wall ... sitting still, or maybe even lying still ... but what is the purpose ?!?
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+Is the purpose to clear our minds ... empty our conscious to become one with the void ?!?
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+_Or is that just the drugs talking?_
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+I mean, it sounds like a nearly impossible feat to me ... so, no.
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+That is not the expectation I'm going to bring to meditation ...
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+Rather, it is a time to observe our thoughts ... as each passes through our mind, ask of it, wherefrom do you travel, and why? What is your aspiration, and what is your fear?
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+And in this manner, weighing the might and mettle of our thoughts ... some we will deem virtuous, _and perhaps it is these we might learn to guard most against ..._ while others we will hopefully be compelled to inquire ... what pain bore this negative emanation?
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+And so journey further within ourselves to find the deeper wounds that need healing.
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+Meditation is about the time we take to do this work ...
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+We do not close our eyes, or stare at a wall, in order to clear our minds ... but rather to more clearly see the journey each thought has taken to arrive at the surface of our consciousness;
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+And whereto it might be best served to go.

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+# Entertaining Alchemy
+
+Origins of the occult knowledge.
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+What does it all mean?
+
+Kneading and fortifying the will.
+
+:::tip A Memory from the Future
+If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
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+Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
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+Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears.
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+When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.
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+For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
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+And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
+
+**Corinthians 1 Chapter 13**
+:::
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+The book of St. Thomas; when the two become one.
+
+Ghost in the Shell.
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+From Hebrew to the Groove Ware People and the White Goddess.
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+Words, symbols and stories.
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+The hero's journey and the zodiac.
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+The importance of words, and being able to name things.

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+# A Test of Ethics
+
+The four accords, and their manipulations
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+1. Impeccable with your word.
+2. Don't take anything personally.
+3. Don't make assumptions.
+4. Always do your best.
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+It's that last one that is the pain in the butt ... and holds us accountable to deeper definitions for points 2 and 3 ... less we be hung from a cross built by #1.

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+# Social Physics
+
+For everything good thing that happens, expect more + one bad thing.
+For every bad thing that happens, expect more + at least one good thing.
+
+Rudyard Kipling's poem "If".
+
+Learning to temper the roofs, walls and floors of our reality tunnels.

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+# The Quantum Realm
+
+What does it all mean ?

docs/df_guide/8_topol.md

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+# The Operational Philosophy of Life
+
+> Chaos is needed in order for a star to be born.
+
+Though in order to dance with chaos we need to know ourselves to the absolute core of our beings.
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+If not beyond.

docs/df_guide/appendices.md

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+# Appendices

docs/df_guide/index.md

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+:::tip Te Aviso
+This is entirely a work in progress; none of which is being written by AI.
+
+If you've got any suggestions for what you'd like to hear more about, lmk via [instagram](https://instgram.com/canincarlos) please.
+:::
+
+# Welcome to the Guide
+
+In the following paragraphs and pages I will attempt to explain who I am and why ...
+
+So without any further ado ... let's begin ...
+
+## A soul with no home
+
+Years later a therapist would tell me that my spirit was severed at birth, and part of it stayed with my mother ...
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+I was adopted as an infant from a country in the Global South, by fair-skinned, farm-raised Protestant-turned-Evangelical Christians ... into the Western Suburbs of a Midwestern city-state known as Minneapolis-St. Paul.
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+At the age of five I began learning to play the piano, and started performing for old folks in nursing homes; as well as singing, and acting, in musicals for the church.
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+The highlight of this career being the opportunity to perform with the Christian-Barney, known as Psalty the Singing Songbook ... for the Billy Graham Kidz Gig.
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+By the age of 21, I'd been married/divorced, fathered a kid, and was on my fourth government name.
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+Yee-haw ...
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+By the age of 35, I'd finally met my mother and sister ... am now using my first and second government names for identification purposes; though have yet to reconcile them all into my sixth, and perhaps final, government name.
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+Next year I'll be 40; and hopefully finally have my undergraduate degree as well.
+
+And that's the long and short of my then-to-now story.
+
+So now into the details ... academically speaking.